The Hidden, Chronic Pain of Grief

Source: The Hidden, Chronic Pain of Grief This is a mirror of me at this moment and I try to share with others who are here today. I am my GirlMic/Leslie’s voice and my healing motivation is to help somebody this day. Thanks to the sharers and caring community for the article #WysWaysofWellness


40 Silent Sermons: GirlMic/Leslie’s Last Days (23)

The GI test is completed. The doctor said “A small tear aggravated by colon tube.” Skip ans Silas are here. Leslie has more eye opening but she is unable to tolerate the pressure support and weaning exercise.  Doctor visits and he says, “we are waiting on lab levels to get better.” Her platelets are 11 and she is requiring more buttons of Platelets. Her Platelets did rise to 135. She is requiring constant care so I am glad that she has Nurses Nancy and Ashley caring for her. I am praying that she is not in pain.

Leslies IVs and Blood L
  Leslies IVs and Blood L

40 Silent Sermons: GirlMic/Leslie’s Last Days (16)

IMG_0004This day is a review of some previous events that were a part of days where visitors Lisa, Diane and Wes  made our day . There is a sweet entry in her journal where they write “we love you Leslie and hope you are moving about very soon.” Her nurses Sarah and Nicole met each other during these days and they were so kind and gentle while doing everything possible for her comfort. Deacon Todd called and we had prayer. When I arrived on Day 15 Leslie was off the ventilator and we turn the page. Ann and Jerome visited us today.

40 Silent Sermons: GirlMic/Leslie’s Last Days (14)

IMG_2127I started my Day at 05:17 with a kiss to Leslie’s forehead and a check of the monitor readings. I was glad to see a nurse who had worked with her before and was kind in her care. She had some eye and forehead movement and a cough so I asked about something to make her more comfortable. I noted in my journal some songs I heard such as “My Soul has been anchored in the LORD.” The Doctors reported low labs and needing more blood. Her sister GalVal and Friends /Family Brenda and Georgia visited and we talked and listened.

40 Silent Sermons: GirlMic/Leslie’s Last Days (12)

IMG_20150629_140049The Day started with a nurse who seemed to be nervous about having to care for Leslie. I am sure that in her briefing she had heard that I wrote down many of the things that happened related to my GirlMic’s care.  As she did everything in a hurried manner and seemed to be scattered, I stopped and prayed that she would be calm, smile and slow down.  By the end of the shift, we both realized that we wanted the best care possible. The weaning trials were not successful. We were glad to get a call from cousin Brenda.

40 Silent Sermons: GirlMic/Leslie’s Last Days (11)

It is 05:33 and I see  that GirlMic’s signs and symptoms are stable and I pray that maybe today will be a good “Respiratory day” and that the Lab values will be better.  I wrote the monitor readings in red as I recorded in Leslie’s journal that her HR was 87 and RR was 21, Platelets 95  and she seemed more awake. Her brother Doug visited and we prayed.Today I met her nurse Sarah and I quickly named her “Sarah with a Smile” She  made me comfortable as she said what I heard many days and nights, “I will be your nurse this shift.”   IMG_0039